I would’ve liked for 12 Days of Anime to focus on a different animated work per post. But the truth is, I can’t do a roundup of this year without going back to the single moment that defined it for me. Once Sting belted out that line – “Why don’t you love who I am?” – I was in love. I mean, just the delivery of it alone. He sings it with all this raw, overwhelming pain, and makes me wish I could sing. Arcane is as much a love letter to the vocal arts as it is a love letter to the visual arts. Its music is so textured and diverse, and I wish I had the vocabulary to talk about it meaningfully. But I can at least recognise the power in Sting’s vocals – his delivery of that line is itself a performance and a half.
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Of course, the whole thing works because of its context. Jinx has just killed Silco, her one father figure, and has realised that Vi loves Powder, the cute dependent little sister that Jinx isn’t. There’s something very pitiable about the situation, mostly Vi’s lack of agency. She’s punched around every time she and Jinx try to have a conversation. And the finale, where Jinx holds Caitlyn at gunpoint while demanding Vi love her, is anathema to affection. Why don’t you love who I am? Well, sweetheart, you didn’t give her a chance.
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Someone on Tumblr (yes, I know, cringe, but I love it) mentioned that Jinx wants to Vi to love her the way Silco loved her – which was an indulgent love. I disagree. Silco loved Jinx the way Vi loved Jinx (Vi, who constantly uplifts Powder even when she messes up); it just so happens that that love was given when Vi seemed to have given up on her. Vi isn’t Jinx’s foil, she’s Silco’s. Both are politically extreme, are deeply passionate about Zaun’s deprivation under Piltover’s tyranny and both have a deep familial relationship with Vander, and then later Jinx. The difference between the two is that Silco’s love was what Jinx needed to detach herself from clumsy, stupid Powder. His love seemed to be endless, without condition. Jinx isn’t perfect. She’s very mentally unwell. And Silco gave her the space to mess up. And I have no doubt Vi would have done the same (she defends Powder from Mylo all the time), but she’s a victim of circumstance. Unlike Jinx, who is an agent of her own destruction, Vi is swept up in the machinations of those around her.
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One thing Arcane does especially skillfully is the blending of the public and the private. Major political events are motivated by personal drama between the characters. Act 1 is triggered by a scrap of orphans stealing from the wrong apartment. And Act 3 ends with an act of political terrorism because, in an over-heated room full of people who love and hate each other, the wrong man dies.
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